I couldn't sleep. So I remade a character playlist I made in September of 2019. And I drew something. I'm tired.
12:03 pm: OK so I got out of bed, umm. I'm listening to Maggots At The Party by Combichrist, that shit goes HARD.
I've been thinking about getting my nails done 🤔 But that might be painful, so I'll either have to do it myself or wait until I can actually talk to strangers. And THAT'S on getting over my social anxiety.
First entry! Hello world! Or, should I say, hello every single visitor of svemirko.neocities.org. Gee, I really hope this page isn't suspicious or anything. I'm not planning to do something horrible. Wait, no, that makes me sound like I'm going to do something like that. If you're reading this, I'm not going to do that.
...um...on a lighter note, I got diagnosed with autism a couple days ago. It's such a good feeling, when you finally find out what the fuck is wrong with you. But I don't want to think about my psychologist. She's kind of creepy.
It's really late and I should go to bed. Oyasumimir!
09:35 am: Good morning! I can't fucking breathe. It's been this way since 2018. As I'm writing this, I'm listening to Lisa by Bleib Modern. That song makes me feel something, an emotion that doesn't exist. It's like melancholy mixed with joy, but the song itself sounds like it's about someone losing their loved one, in one way or another, and also seems to be a sequel of sorts to If Love Is Just A Word ("Love is a word that I cannot spell"). I don't know! Bleib Modern never specifies the meaning of their songs. I think it's all up to interpretation.
I'm tired and I want to go back to bed. Getting out of bed is already hard enough, and it's a miracle that I dragged myself out of bed to write this on my laptop. My fingers are stiff and they hurt. I should probably take a break.
10:15 am: Currently listening to Professional Killer by KMFDM, it's such a good song. Anyway! Now I realise why you should always make the pages before linking them on your page. It doesn't leave people with false hope and also saves you a lot of time since you can link the finished page without having to waste your time making 10+ pages and working on them instead of doing something you enjoy doing! That was a long sentence. Haha! Lucky for me, doing this is weirdly therapeutic.
20:44 pm: I took a nap, and now my head hurts. I woke up to see that both of my parents weren't home. Where could they be at this hour?
22:44 pm: I looked at the clock, 22:44 pm. It reminds me of what Sol Pais said about seeing 444 everywhere. Her case certainly was interesting, but I'm going to try and not get too into it.
Anyway. As it turns out, my parents went grocery shopping while I was asleep.
I want to go to the graveyard, it's not that far from my house. But I think the area is monitored, so I'm not going to go there.